SAYS IT ALL..
I was in the hospital early morning and while waiting, this song of parokya ni edgar just played- Maniwala Ka Sana. Natatawa lang ako habang pinapakinggan. Nakaka-bitter lang. Actually, lahat naman ng kanta ng PNE nakaka-bitter dahil alam mong may pinanghuhugutan yung gumawa at dahil din sa yun yung mga kantang trip ng mga boys kong friend nung HS na syempre kasama siya. Hehe. Nakaka-miss at nakaka-bitter at the same time.
I was once in love with the feeling of being so in love.
Sucks being dead over heels to someone that’s not worth it. I don’t know, nasabi ko sigurong hindi worth it dahil nasaktan ako. Sinaktan ako. Ganun naman ata talaga, diba?
Tanggap ko na ngayon, Oo. Pero noong mga panahong ‘yon? Wow lang! Totally crashed because of what he did. Falling in love with someone in an unexpected time was not anyone’s fault, right? But falling in love with someone while having a relationship was definitely your choice. ‘Wag na ‘wag mong masabi hindi mo sinasadya dahil pwedeng mapigilan ‘yon.
‘Wag mo ring gawing excuse na kaya ka na-fall sa iba ay dahil hindi niya naibigay ng buo yung pagmamahal na hinahanap mo. Ask yourself, ikaw ba naibigay mo ng buo sakin ‘yon? Kasi ‘yang ganyan bagay will always remain unmeasurable. Nasa sarili mo ‘yan kung kailan ka makokontento.
‘Di ko alam kung pano tatapusin to. Ang alam ko lang, I did my best to save us, but you never fought with me. Letting go wasn’t easy for someone who thinks you’re the one. I loved you so much but you just chose to leave.
I don’t know where to start. Sorry. Pero nandito ako para lang mag-sulat ng nararamdaman ko na hindi ko kayang ilabas through my coward mouth.